yes please don’t be nice
I won’t be nice.
I’m glad to hear that.
I will follow suit.
And I won’t be nice either.
why did you start a matthew temple facebook anyway?
Did you start using that name again?
The nice thing was about my kid.
I like to be cryptic.
Yes, I am using the name Matthew Van Temple. Your cryptic messages are fun, it means I get to imagine what they might mean.
so are you not using zha anymore at all?
I am using Zha, yes. I am using both. I’m preferring to be called Matthew primarily by friends and family now though. But I still use and love both.
When and why did this happen?
In bed, which one I prefer depends on the type of sex occurring.
good to know that.
It’s I guess happening now, and the why is because I felt like it.
speaking of cryptic.
what are you up to tonight?
I’m trying to write the christmas letter.
I need a word for invest that is not invest
but more like commit
but I mean invest.
thesaurus is failing me.
ooh I like your christmas letters
what are you investing?
time energy commitment
I don’t want to use it twice.
even three paragraphs apart.
but I can’t think of another word.
lemme see what devote does.
I don’t know…
I think that invest is really the best word.
I’d have to rework this sentence and it’s not really meaning the same thing.
That should be a sad face for the language failing me.
and my vocabulary failing me.
Maybe. Maybe you just have been doing enough investing that it’s impossible in English to write your Christmas letter without using the word twice.
nah, I got it with devotion.
It’s the zinger in the Jon paragraph.
It originally read,
stop me if you don’t want to know.
I want to know.
“To let off steam, he foolishly invests in Cleveland Sports.”
Or actually I think it said He lets off steam by foolishly investing in Cleveland sports. oops.
it now reads….
Therefore he’s foolishly resurrected a devotion to Cleveland sports.
ha! love it
what the hell is wrong with me?
you’re a writer – why is it that I’m good at journaling, emailing, posting on message boards, and writing effing holiday letters but somehow writing fiction is beyond me?
well, I don’t know what criteria you used to determine that writing fiction is beyond you, but I suspect I would disagree with it
I can’t even get my act together to write news.
Why do you think it’s beyond you?
Or that you don’t have your act together?
it’s the motivation factor and I can’t do plot or character development or anything that makes sense
I can just do extensive, non-linear narrative.
and then I give it up and am lazy as shit.
(sounds great!–the extensive non-linear narrative)
so it’s not like i could use it to make it into something else.
something, you know, readable.
something that would make me like not as poor as i currently am.
yeah well, I am not the person to speak about such things as that myself!!
or even something that would let me feel accomplished.
like, that I could even do it.
I’m terrified of going back and fixing things.
I love the thrill of getting it write in a short time.
but I do think you could write a book, a great book, and/or a book that would sell and make you rich :: I do think those things are true about you
I hate – LOATHE – am terrified of! editing.
maybe you won’t have to edit
? =)=) !
I just wrote an awesome comment on someone’s blog
I want you to write a book someday because I want to read it!
full of insight and perspective.
well that’s good to know.
the blog comment was about facebook…
lol, what did you say? or if you have alink I am in a reading mmod
mmod as well actually
I’ve been a shit to you about the writing you’ve sent me though and for that I feel I would have to catch up on everything before I could ask you to read my book
yeah right, you’ve never been a shit to me AK
well I never read the stuff because I’d forget to.
but I can blame it on my children.
it’s not a problem for me
or maybe you could “write” nonfiction
if that is natural to you
I’ve thought about just grabbing all my internet posts.
but that’s like doing your taxes or organizing your photos.
don’t edit them though!
it takes effort.
do you have a lot of them? maybe the work you think you have to do is already done?
I just wrote a great Anna paragraph in the holiday letter, btw.
I have something like 16,000 posts on one message board.
not all of them are valuable, mind you, but some of them are gems.
a few are even repeated on my blogs, they’re so good.
I have another near 10,000 on my local mama message board.
send me the anna parag. I want to read it. :: or I can wait for the letter…16+10k posts :: jesus fing christ :: that’s awesome!
luckily those are the only message boards I’m on.
Anna continues to self-inflict overwhelm and underpay with heavy investment in the community via volunteering in local foods, participating in natural childbirth activism and support, concocting unschooling activities and events for which to drag the children to, and hosting wild dance parties in the living room at three a.m.
I like the comma-less list atthe beginning
where am I missing a comma?
I suppose I should be using semi-colons
but, well, no.
no, no semicolons
self-inflict overwhelm and underpay…standardly there would be a command after self-inflict, right? I like it the way you have it though it’s faster and more breathless fitting with the underlying idea
about the command. It’s the wording.
That’s how I write! I always do that.
this happens thisly through this resulting in this this this this this and this.
of course it does =)=)
that’s how my sentences go, yo!
it’s also how I talk.
which I’m sure you know.
and I am quite the talker.
I just need a closing.
for the whole letter and I’m done.
yes you always had a breathless chock-full quality to your words
a powerhouse or freight train aspect
I’m an all-over freight train.
everything in my life is like that.
omg – at a party last night someone said the funniest thing to me
He said, “Anna you’re always just so calm and collected. I never see you amped up or upset.”
I laughed in his face.
He doesn’t know me very well.
And I was tired last night.
you should have thrown up on him like in se7en
just making an appearance.
although, I dont think that would have looked too good on me.
that’s your problem “yo”!
if you were my puppet I would make you stab people and throw up on them
instead I’ll attempt to suggest words when I can and generally encourage you that you kick ass and can do whatever you like, writing-wise =)=)
and I will enjoy your conversation
yer pretty awesome.
I’m thinking the bastian paragraph needs work.
I love that you let me be self-important.
it’s probably just that I’m self-important to such a degree that I don’t notice it in others, honestly
Well I always feel like I have to temper it in myself. That I have to consciously and intentionally apologize for my self-involvement or remember to ask about others or be gracious, accept compliments well and be inclined to give them.
And you just encourage the opposite of that. You just say, “I love you! I love that you love you! Let’s love ourselves!”
it’s probably the better way of going about it, really.
it’s only because I figure we’re all going to die very very soon
j/k (sort of)
thanks for your impression of me, it’s awesome!
I feel so high tonight, I feel excellent, and your chat with me is part of it!
Truly I have a love/hate with facecrack haha
don’t we all though? lol
I’m glad you’re having such a good night though.
This is good.
What were you doing besides talking to me?
drinking coffee, writing, playing “Cafe World”, and eating spirulina and japalenos (as discussed) and thinking of watching “Sneakers”!!!
the awesomeness of tonight is significantly affected by the coffee, which I rarely drink, and has me up
I usually drink it in the morning.
I’m doing tea tonight.
see, I’m a beginner at coffee, I didn’t know there was a time to drink it and a time not to
but that makes sense
how do you take your coffee?
today, I took it with loads of 1/2+1/2, let it get cold, then drank it
I do 1/2 & 1/2 plus a tiny bit of sugar.
but it’s to cut the bitterness – the sugar. Just barely.
I like it with the cream though. That’s very important. It makes it more relaxing.
my Mom puts sugar in her tea and I think I will try that with say spiced chai next time because while the smell is ideal the taste isn’t
I have my morning ritual. I love the coffee as part of it. I only really drink the one cup too.
and I don’t always finish it because it gets cold.
I like very mild teas, myself. and nothing in them.
I mainly like the smells of these things, but I end up drinking them too sometimes
sometimes honey, but rarely and usually just if I’m sick to get the honey in me.
The smell of coffee is very important too.
It’s all ritual. And I really mean ritual. I don’t mean it as in “routine.”
I can imagine
I hope you have a good night and your letter goes well :: I’m going to get off FC
Talk to you later. Have a good night as well. I’m getting quite tired, really…