from C.R.

“beautiful Violin in my night stand. I peek at you every so often but refuse to play . I know the first few strums will numb my head. The smell will confuses my senses. raw broken skin clumsily dragged across the strings.A voice  that rushes back in time to an open window high from the ground. Smell of cloves. and silent chatter among us.In my life you will stay!”

from C.R.

Dog Dreams, and Thoughts on Dog Training

A few nights ago, while staying with a friend in my friend’s bed, I had another dog dream. Like my dog dreams of old, where a person who is an enemy of mine sicks their dog on me to hurt me, and my defense is so strong I kill the dog, ripping its skull in halves by the jaw…but the dream a few nights ago, a person didn’t sick the dogs on me, it was three black dogs, and they wanted to hurt me on their own volition. The other night I just let myself be bitten, the three of them with their jaws locked on my arm. And my mom was there, and some other people (neighbors), and I was asking them to call for help, as my arm was about to be broken, but they didn’t think, or wouldn’t accept, that the situation was that bad, and so they wouldn’t call for greater help.

Last night I had another dog dream. A single black dog, who was as strong and stout as a wild boar, was biting my hand. He wasn’t sent by anyone, he had just showed up from outside the town, from the wilds. At first he was biting my hand, then I discovered I could train him. It was rough going, but I trained him to bite plastic cup lids instead of my hand: I would throw them in the air and he would catch them (sometimes), and when he caught them, when he was nice to me, I dared to rub his muzzle with my hands and kiss him on the face as praise. With some backsteps, he was trainable, and he hardly bit me at all, and he learned to accept my love and praise.

When I looked up dream symbols for dogs biting, the other night in my friend’s bed, the consensus was they represent a friend who will betray you. Of course I’m always trying to figure out what these dogs mean in my dreams, as they are one of the most constant symbols in my dreams in at least the last five years, perhaps more. I think they mean various things, actually. I think they represent others who would do me harm, others who are close to me. I think they represent my addiction. I think they represent a part of me I can’t control, the part of me that isn’t “my” consciousness, the higher self, the other self. Like the ancient word for god: *that*, they represent the that: which can be a friend (who in drama are characterized by toggles from ally to adversary, and back—like the random turning of a pet from a loving thing into a biting thing, into a loving thing), that: which can be the uncontrollable part of self which plays into addiction, that: which can be, broadly {the other part of self} {anything which is me and yet not me, connected and yet not connected completely}.

I suspect my dream last night was heavily influenced by having watched The Accidental Tourist sometime in the evening. While watching the movie last night I decided that for dramatists, an excellent question to consider is: What does Macon’s dog represent? At the time, I didn’t make the connection I made this morning, while reviewing the fact that I’m, again, attempting to interpret dog symbols from my dreams: my question might be good for dramatists in general, but it has been an ongoing one for me: what do Zha’s dogs represent? While watching the movie last night the best terminology I could assemble for Macon’s dog is that it represents his anger. Anger being one’s *fight*, the fight in the dog. His dog goes through phases in the movie: at first it bites others, then it bites him, then it gets trained, then it protects and loves Macon’s girlfriend’s son. The dog in the movie, best I can say, represents Macon’s *fight*. It lashes out at others, then in depression is anger turned on himself (the dog biting him), then his fight is put under control (with help from a dog trainer / lover / love from outside), then his fight is used to provide love where love is lacking (as a father to Macon’s girlfriend’s son—he releases the dog to protect/love the son in the alleyway where the son is being teased by bullies, but, less symbolically, Macon provides father-love where father-love is lacking in the child’s life).

Last night I did something I haven’t done before in my dog dreams: I trained my dog with love. Before, I have decimated them with force, with force held them stilly at bay, and given in to their attack waiting on the verge of my own destruction. Now I have trained him with love.

I have been talking with god again, lacking the name to use, I used to use “universe”, yesterday I used “sky”. Maybe I should use “dream”: my dreams are part of my that, part of the somewhat-but-not-quite-completely other, the me that is me but not every part of me, something that is larger than the conscious me, the unconscious me.

As an additional note, I’m considering the idea of training another being via praise, in light of my idea that the essential motivation of beings is *to go*: to see themselves *go* in the world, to act such that their concept of the world includes the concept of the being throughout greater and greater parts of the world, and in greater and greater ways. Who is in charge when training with praise? Generally we think it is the trainer; by controlling rewards, praise, love, we control the beast. And in controlling the beast, we see ourselves *go* in the world; our will is present in a greater locus of the world, the beast now internalizing our will. But certainly to the beast it seems the same: the beast sees itself as controlling us, as controlling our praise, our love, our response to its action. By catching the plastic cup lid in its mouth, my dream dog controls my love: I think I’m making him catch the cup lid by loving him afterward, he thinks he’s making me love him by catching the cup lid. Both are true, and in this type of exchange we see beings *going* in the world: beings seeing themselves inhabit the world *in* other beings, their concepts of themselves planted in other beings, and so, their concept of themselves becoming greater, better traveled.

On the training tip: consider this: what sense does it make to think that I’m making him catch the cup lid by praising him with love *after* he catches the cup lid? How could the love be the *cause* there, since it happens *after* the catching of the the cup lid? Of course what we say to ourselves is that the praise, the love, is the cause, because the dog is thinking ahead to multiple choices of what we might do depending on what he does. But the facts are these: sometimes when we throw the cup lid, he catches it; sometimes when we throw the cup lid, he doesn’t; but *every* time he catches the cup lid, we praise him, and every time he doesn’t catch it, we don’t (if we’re training him). So what’s the real cause here, and what’s the real effect? I think it’s fair to include that our throwing the cup lid into the air, is a cause, and that him catching it is a possible outcome. But the only certain relationship of implication in the facts above is: if he catches the cup lid, we praise him (and if he doesn’t, we don’t). The cause is him catching the cup lid (or not), the effect is us praising him (or not). We’re not making him catch the cup lid nearly as much as he is making us love him.

Dog Dreams, and Thoughts on Dog Training

"Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life" (Swami Vivekananda)

“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life – think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” (Swami Vivekananda) (via Suzanne)

"Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life" (Swami Vivekananda)

Mr. President:

I am glad you are my President.  For the first time in my lifetime I am thoroughly impressed with the speaking ability of the holder of that office.  Thank you for that!

I am concerned, however, with our government’s continued bailing out of corporations, with taxpayers’ money, while those taxpaying citizens suffer.  I am not alone in thinking that if GM (et al.) fail, then we should simply let them fail.  As it is, we are supporting banks and international corporations, while those same institutions outsource labor to countries to which I cannot move, in which it is difficult or impossible for me to work.

I support this country, I love this country, and I work in this country.  I don’t own a house, and I scrape by to pay medical bills incurred while working for a software company that doesn’t provide health insurance.  Bailing out banks, auto-makers, and insurance companies isn’t helping me — and it’s being done with my money.

I urge you to consider allowing the short-term pain of a corporate collapse…simply be a corporate collapse.  It is not my job to work in order to support failing US companies.

Sincerely,

Mr. President:

Dream tonight that I was escaping the law,

had escaped from jail and was in the process of escaping their tracking of me once they knew I had escaped…there were a series of situations that I had to figure out, costumes to don, to shrug off, people to say goodbye to, windows to climb out of, and fences to scale, but then I would be free.


“Being released in a dream from prison signifies a start of a new life and acquisition of freedom. Jail. An obstacle dream. If you escaped or were released, your difficulties will be short term; otherwise, you may have a long, tough struggle. A jail symbolizes the problems in your life. If you escape from it, you will find answers to your problems. If not, they will overwhelm you. To dream that you escape confinement from a jail, or prison, foretells that you will experience a rapid rise in your profession in the business world that surrounds you, a breaking out of the mold sort of progress. To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement, signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. If you dream that you escape from jail or a cage, or break free from shackles or ropes, you my wish to be free from a stressful situation. You may wish to express talents that you have been repressing. jailbreak Do not allow yourself to become desperate due to the problems of someone else.  Do everything you can to tactfully avoid involvement in someone else’s problems.  Go on with your life.”

I see this as Peter’s problems with Pragmatic business, as Dad’s problems with family stuff, and as other people in NA’s problems.

“Escape  A straightforward obstacle dream. The interpretation depends on the details, but as a general guide: Escape from prison or a similar type of confinement means a rapid rise in the world. Escape. To escape from someone or somewhere is often indicative of needing to uncover new potential in the self, or to drop bad habits of the past. This new potential comes from incorporating the next order of archetype into the conscious. Dreaming that you escape from jail or some place of confinement means your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Escape. This is an omen of good luck for many, as it is a statement that you are making good. To dream that you escape confinement from a jail, or prison, foretells that you will experience a rapid rise in your profession in the business world that surrounds you, a breaking out of the mold sort of progress. Dreaming that you escape from jail or some place of confinement means your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. On the other hand, it may mean that you are taking an escapist attitude and are refusing to face up to problems that are not going away. Dreaming that you escape from injury, from an animal, or from any situation means your good health and prosperity. You will experience a favorable turn of events. To see any one dismissed from prison, denotes that you will finally overcome misfortune.”

Dream tonight that I was escaping the law,